Okay, I guess we all have to prepare for winter. For three days now I am suffering from the grey days and the sun hasn´t shown her pretty face for a while. Everyone who is reading this blog for longer knows how much I dislike winter. This year I am trying to survive it in a better way and spice it up with some colour in my wardrobe. Last week, on a Saturday afternoon I went to the Humana Shop at Frankfurter Tor to have a look for a new coat. I haven´t been there for ages and I really enjoyed working myself through the 4 floors from crazy vintage treasures to just plain mad stuff I cannot believe even got produced. As much as I want to buy just second hand clothes, I always get disappointed very quickly because I am too small for all the clothes. So I developed a new passion: Getting clothes from friends who want to get rid of them and don´t want to wear anymore. Honestly, my wardrobe consists of a lot of friends´ clothes. I love it, we should just swap clothes all the time and not go to the shops in the first place. Anyway, I found this lovely coat eventually. I still have to get used to it because it is too big, obviously. And it isn´t a thick winter coat. So basically I failed...but in a cheap and pretty way. 4 € was unbeatable!
(Coat- Humana // Shoes - Shelly´s London )
Looking at these pictures makes me realise that I definitely grew up and got older. There isn´t the crazy teenager standing anymore, how I used to feel. Being small, having big eyes and a small nose always makes you look younger than you are, but these pictures made me think that this girl in the photo is a proper 25 year-old `woman´ which you might be able to take seriously. 25 is an awesome age. I am halfway through my 26th year and I couldn´t feel more balanced. Still, there are loads of challenges and loads of issues which burden my thoughts, which I carry around everyday but I am definitely feeling a difference in dealing with them. It´s about confidence and trust. I am learning everyday and I am doing this way more consciously than when I was younger. I am appreciating things more and I am forcing myself to do things I am scared of. I have some goals lined up and know what I still have to do but also I know what I have encountered in the past. I don´t know, maybe the imminent end of my Master´s degree is making my a bit thoughtful but honestly I am thinking about this so often. Everyone is telling me, that `we are getting old´ in such a negative way and that this means not being able to party two days in a row anymore or staying in on weekdays watching a film or sleeping early. I don´t mind that. I think there will still be moments you leave a club at 9am when you at least expect it, but the pressure is disappearing. And I am just so curious when those moments will happen again, amidst the life of calm nights where we are able to discuss world politics with a glass of wine or play board games whilst discussing George Orwell and his theories in 1984. I just enjoy finding myself between still being young enough to have mad days and nights without thinking about tomorrow and already old enough to act responsibly and independently. I just have to find out now where I want to end up.
Thanks to Vio for the pictures. After ages we spent an afternoon including cake and hot lemons together and used the chance to take some pictures like in old times. You can see her post on her blog already.